Today is the 9th days after my beloved grandmother have pass away, I am very emo & stress now.

To: My Beloved Grandmother

Thanks for taking care of me for 23years. I know you care alot about me, i been very playful and misbehave. Please forgive me. I will not cry & sad, i will be happy forever, You may not be beside me from now, you will be forever in my heart, til the day i leave this world. There are too many good thing and good memory that you brought it to me. When i fall, you are there to bring me up. When i am side you are there to care about me. Grandmother, i will forever love you & thanks you.

From the day i lost my grandmother, my feel haven been very weak. This years is the 6 years that i am not in-love. When i am sad, i got no one to talk with, When i am happy, i got no one to share with. I got alot friends, But none of them i are my close friends. I may look very happy and normal, but who know the real identify of myself. The one that you all have see, is just a mask that i am wearing.

Death is nothing, alive then is scary, How i wish i can live in a world of no pain no feeling.